Ghosted: DF to DM

The Divine Feminine is in anguish. She is alive and yet she feels invisible to the Divine Masculine. She knows that whenever he is silent, he is healing on his own. She is trying to understand all of this and yet her heart is aching...

Inevitable: DF to DM

The DFs are awakening. They are finally walking to the path of unconditional love. 

She misses her DM but she is no longer frustrated. Because she already knew that twinflames can never be separated. The 3D world may show a different form of reality but she knew better. She will wait and hold a space for him, until he returns back home to her... 

I Choose Me: DF to DM

The twinflame journey does not have an easy path. As what most of the divine feminines' experience, they are tested to the point of exhaustion.

Love comes to her in the most unexpected way to a stranger whom she feels at home with. She feels the connection is so strong and asks herself several times if she is still sane. Because things just don't make sense. The unseen guides led her to consult tarot, and she found out that she is in a twinflame connection which explains everything that was once absurd to her. She felt grateful to have found her twin but the situation was not always favorable to her. 

Some divine masculines may be dealing with karmic situation, some may have a family of their own, some were bound in addiction, some in a codependent relationship. 

The DF sees the DM suffer and she suffers inside. Sometimes he comes to her and makes her insides melt with just a simple smile. Sometimes he does something for her which really makes her happy. But sometimes he completely ignores her and she just does not know why he is suddenly ghosting her. His actions triggers her. What he says and what he does not say makes her pensive. He makes her feel frustrated in so many ways she would wish she hadn't met him because the pain is too much. She hates what he does to her and her feelings. And she realized that she was hating yourself. She finally understood what mirroring means. 

She finally found out that the best way to union is to love herself. The more she loves herself,  the more he comes to her. Choosing herself first doesn't mean selfish, it means self-love. And self-love brings forth healing. 

This is to all the divine feminines out there who gave out their heart to their DMs... Love Yourself. 

DF's message to DM

Every divine feminine is longing to be with her divine masculine. The only thing she holds true is this deep feeling of attraction that keeps pulling her to him. A strong yet unexplainable kind of connection. But whenever she comes near him, he suddenly pulls away.

She could not understand why she had to wait. She could not understand why she had to feel frustrated.

Whenever she feels happy, he comes to her with a smile that could make her forget all the things in the world. Whenever he comes to her,  magic happens. And she falls all over again.

For The Sake of Happily Ever After: Top and Ball

As the whipping top continues to spin, he couldn't get his mind off his old love. It's a wonder how time could have done so much. He almost didn't recognize his old love. It should be easy to say that he had wasted his life fancying over a young ball who now had lost all its beauty. But whenever he thinks of it, he feels so sorry for what they both went through. He tried not to think of her but the more he tries not, the more she fills his mind. And just like before, he's dreading to see her again.
Days passed until one day he went too far away spinning that he ended up in the bin again.

"Hi! It's you again!" exclaimed the ball as he bumped into her.

Looking at her faded color, the top remembered how his love used to be. Looking at her now, he realized how much he missed her. She probably had been alone for so long. Her beauty faded and all but his heart flutters still as it used to flutter as before.

"It's cold and dark in here," said the ball. "Did you know that my father and mother were morocco slippers, and that I have a Spanish cork in my body?” Then she fell silent for a while. "Yeah, you might not notice that now. But I was once... never mind. I wish I look as good as you are."

"You think I am good looking?"

"Yes, you are. Among the things inside this bin, it is so clear that you do not belong here."

"And that makes me good looking?"

"Well," the ball looked at him thoughtfully. "You're not as good looking as the one  knew from the past. He has the color of fire whenever he spins. I really do not see him as he is way back then. But he was really the most beautiful thing in the world. But," she sighed. "I rejected him for a swallow who never came to marry me."

"A top proposed to you?" asked the top, feeling so sad as he remembered the day when they started to speak no more.

"Yes," answered the ball. "I was once beautiful," she chuckled. "We could have been good together. Too bad, I haven't seen it til now."

"If he marries you now, will you say yes?"

"He probably won't like me when he sees me. He might even have forgotten me."

"But will you?"

The ball smiled sadly and thoughtfully looked at him. "No," answered the ball in almost a whisper.

The top was taken a back by the ball's answer. "But why?" The scars of the past suddenly became fresh wounds and he felt as if he is starting to bleed again.

"Marry him and then what? Let him be trapped in this cold dark place? No. After all, he deserves to be happy. He maybe was hurt when I rejected his love. I was always full of myself I didn't even think of his feelings."

Feeling relieved, the top wanted to spin with what he heard. And for the first time, he doesn't feel sorry that the ball was trapped in here for a long time. Because years of contemplating made her realize she loves him. And he wanted to kiss her for that.

"Then if you can't marry him, will you marry me?"

"Marry?" the ball wore a shocked expression. "What? You?"

The top went nearer the ball. "Have I really changed that much for you not to recognize me?"

The ball stared at him in amazement. "Is that really you? Y-You look so--"

"Yeah, good looking. Now, will you marry me?"

She felt silent.

"We'll look good together in the years to come." The top said, thinking he would fade soon drenched in the water. Just like the ball. And that is what he wanted to be. Because he wanted to be with her. "I love you still. And if it means staying here in this cold dark place, I do not mind, as long as I am with you."

The ball cried as she place her head in his head. "You really love me, don't you?"

The top kissed the ball. "Yes, because you have the Spanish cork inside you. And that makes you unique. And that makes me love you so. So, what, will you marry me?"

The ball smiled and kissed him. "Yes. While you are here, I want to be your wife."

"I'd be here forever."

The ball smiled sadly. "Soon enough, they're going to search for you when they find you missing and they will look in here."

"I'll hide. I don't want to be away from you anymore."

But just as he said that, the dust bin opened. And it was too late for the top to hide. It was the boy who used to play with them.

The ball quickly kissed him. "Even when our time together is so short, I'll treasure it for the rest of my life."

"Just as I thought," they heard as the boy peeked through the bin. "Here you are!" The boy said as he reached for the gilt top.

The top, not wanting to leave, rolled over and pushed the ball, that the boy reached for the ball.

"Ah!" the boy exclaimed with disgust when he saw what he was holding but stared at the ball for a while. "This is my old ball. So it was here all along!" he said joyfully as he let it bounce. His other hand searched for the gilt top and took it. Now, his favorite toys are back.

The ball looked clean now, and her beauty shone more than ever. She was so happy to bounce again.

"I hope you still want to get married with me," said the top. "I always feel afraid when you bounce too high for the swallow might come and make you his wife."

"I already told you, you are the most beautiful thing on earth. I still want to marry you, silly."

The top smiled. And he spun happily and she bounced joyfully ever after.

***This is my own ending of the story The Top and Ball by Hans Christian Andersen. I just can't take sad endings. So here's for the sake of happily ever after. Hope you liked it! :)*

-Calla Lily

As Long As Forever: Mushroom and Gino

TEASER:

Nothing can make Mushroom happier than to see Gino out of her life. Simula nang magka-isip siya hindi niya maalalang naging masaya siya sa tuwing nariyan ang kababata. He always makes her day worst of all worsts. Wala siyang ibang nararamdaman para dito kundi inis, galit at pagkamuhi na walang kapantay.

Hindi niya aakalaing didinggin ng Diyos ang hiling niya. Gino will be gone for good. But she found out something unusual. She felt sad. And though she could never explain why, she was heartbroken. And she found herself praying he’ll never leave. But he left, leaving a promise that he will love her as long as forever. Naghintay siya. Hanggang sa mapagod ang puso niya sa kahihintay.

After ten long years, Gino was back. And just when Mushroom took the risk of loving him, something inevitable happened and Gino has to leave her again for good. How will she fight for the love she kept for so long? How will she make Gino fight for their love?

How can she make him fulfill his promise?


***This is the first story I've ever written. It's a story of how beautiful and painful love can be. You can read the full story at https://my.w.tt/hB815GSLQ0.

Love always, 
Calla Lily




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